Whenever i fell sick, i will cry.
I dont know why, i just cant help it. Maybe i miss my home, i miss living with my parents, i feel empty.

Nothing can fill that emptiness. Luckily i have wonderful boyfriend and his family, who take good care of me.
But sometime it's another reason to made me feel sad even more.

Cant describe the feeling of living without family, maybe it's fun and cool to stay alone for first few years.
But after 10 years, its just feel numb n empty. Can u imagine we have to put in effort to plan in order to see our dad once a month?
and its not even the "full" family, we only have a "proper full family dinner" once a year.
How sad can that be?

Sometimes i wish my family stay together, and have family dinner over granma's place every sunday.
No it never happen and will never happen.